The beauty of love

Love. So easy to say but difficult to prove and maintain.

The way we love depends on how we understand love itself. It depends on what we see around us,on how love was shown to us by the people around us.

We all love differently.For if we all loved thesame then there would be no break ups.There is no perfect formula on how to love.What works for me might not work for you right?

You have your own understanding of what love should be,and i have my own experiences and past that made me realize the beauty of love.

The way i see it,

People will always make mistakes.No matter how hard they try not to,people can still hurt you even if you give them your best.They may still hurt you even when they do not mean to hurt you.

And they may still hurt you even when you beg them not to.

That is where love comes in.If there is love,there is forgiveness.You should be ready to forgive when you love.
That is the beauty of love.

But one should always remember that we are only human beings..that because of too much pain and suffering we choose to end that love,not because we are not strong enough or that we are choosing the easy way out,but because love, is not just about being hurt it is also about happiness and having peace in your mind and heart.So we forgive but sometimes we cannot love that same person again or maybe we can but not now.Not until the pain is gone.

We should not only learn to love others but also to love ourselves.We deserve to be loved most importantly by ourselves.When we love ourselves we learn to value our worth.When we learn to love our imperfect self and our flaws,then can we love others without expecting them to be perfect.We can then love what is true.

Love hurts like hell,but it is beautiful more than anything else.





How do you forgive anyone?

How do you forgive someone who does not even say sorry?

How do you forgive someone who doesn’t want to be forgiven, for in his mind he is right.

To forgive someone who believes that he did not do anything wrong?

How do you fogive and not feel hurt?

Maybe i do not know how to forgive.

Maybe i only know how to forget.

How many times should you forgive and feel betrayed over and over again?

How many times will you be fooled until you’ve had enough?

Tell me, when can i stop forgiving?

Who can i continue forgiving?

Is life all about forgiveness?

Am i wise if i always forgive?

Tg to  be fooled again?

How do i trust again after forgiving the one who keeps on hurting me?

If only forgiveness is as easy as hurting someone then everythign would be okay.

But it is not easy.It is more complicated than i thought.

It needs time.

It needs patience and trust.

It needs unconditional love.

It needs you to give yourself fully in order for it to be genuine.

Forgiveness is to give.To give yourself and trust again.

I do not know when or how i can give it to you.

But i will try.

To forgive and be forgiven.

You know who you are


You do not own me.

I will not let you control me.

I refuse to be your puppet.

I know my worth and what i can do.

 I know you.

You should be afraid of me.

For i know your secrets.

I know what you are doing.

I can see what you are afraid of.

I know you.

I wonder how you sleep at night.

How can you look at me and not feel any guilt?

Darkness has changed you.

It is the only thing in your mind

I know you.

Everybody can see how it is eating you alive.

Engulfing every inch of who you are.

Until you become nothing in this world.

You are going to wake up with nothing.

You are nothing.

To be kind

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How much kindness can i give?

I have been giving a lot, but it is not enough.

Am i being selfish?

To be kind is a sacrifice.

I give up my own feelings for the sake of others.

I give up my rights for the sake of kindndess.

How long can i be kind when all they give is pain?

When all i feel is the hurt they’ve caused me.

When all i see is injustice around me,

Is it unfair to ask for kindness in return?

Now i have regrets.

Regrets because of kindness.

I cannot even pretend to smile anymore.

I cannot pretend much longer.

Teach me how to be kind without the pain.

Teach me to see the good in everyone.

To heal the wound  caused by kindness.

And i hope that one day…


I can give the kindness that i used to give.

Life is what you make of it.



I am not going to say that life is easy or that life is complicated or difficult. Not everyone has the same kind of life. Some people have been living an easy breezy life.They have everything handed out to them without a sweat; not even an ounce of effort is needed. They are previleged in most aspect of their lives.Successful in almost anything that they do.

Unfortunately for some, life is a constant struggle. For them you have to work hard to get what you want. And sometimes they do not even get what they deserve.They work hard but it just goes unappreciated and unnoticed.

At an early age, i already knew that i had to work hard if i wanted something. I was raised to work for anything that i wanted.And as i grew up i kept that in mind. I needed to give my full effort even if i am not sure if i will succeed.

There were times that my life was easy.Everything that  i planned and wanted, happened. There are also times when i had done everything that i can but still ended up with nothing but  a broken heart and  a lost soul.Times when i felt  that there was nothing in the world for me.That nothing can make me happy anymore.Times when i lose my interest in everything; even in life.

Sometimes you think you have things figured out.Then you plan everything and work your ass off to get it.But it is still not enough. Then you give it another try;only to find out that you can never have it because it was never for you in the first place.So depressing right?What else can you do? Well you can either be mesirable your whole life or just move on and continue to live the life that you want.You can choose to continue going down or get the hell back up and live the life that makes you happy.Always choose what can make you really happy inside.

There will always be problems in this world.Problems existed in tha past, is existing in the present and will exist in the future. Everyone has problems.I have problems,my loved ones have problems, and friends have problems.So why kill yourself with all these problems.One problem ends but another one emerges.

The way i see it, we can make life simple.

Here are some steps to make life simple.

  1. If you see something as a problem, either you do something about that problem or you just ignore it. (And by the way, if you only keep on complaining about it but not doing anything.Please just shut up instead.) Face your problem or ignore your problem.
  2. If you want to achieve something, work hard for it.Fight for it even if you fail. But you have to learn how to move on also  if it is not for you.
  3. Enjoy the little things.
  4. When you are happy, then be happy.And if you are sad, then be sad. Why pretend? It is so tiring to pretend being happy when you are crying inside.No one should hide how he/she feels.
  5. Let love help you.Love can make life simple.

A simple life, that is what i want my life to be.

April 1, 2016




I have decided to start writing again. Write about my thoughts,feelings and people around me who constantly test my patience. People who motivate me in practicing my creative thinking on how to kill them in my mind.Well maybe not kill them…i am not a murderer..yet. Maybe just make them suffer a little bit.There are people who were born to make you question what is right and wrong.


Anyway,my life has been so stressful these couple of months and i have been having an awful lot of headaches. I think it’s because i think a lot; a side effect of caring too much, i think..hmm(see i am thinking again…haha) Sometimes i prefer not to talk since i already have a lot going on in my mind.Oh how do i stop this?

So i am really hoping that writing again can help calm me down.You know, organize my thoughts.Prevent myself from doing something that i might regret afterwards.haha..

Goodluck to me and to the people that i am going to write about.So just continue to piss me off and you could be lucky one chosen as my next topic.

See you soon 🙂

Notice before it’s too late


People only start to see you when you don’t want to be seen.

They talk to you when you are still talking.

They listen to you when you have nothing to say.

They look for you when you are not there anymore.

They value you when you are already gone.

They only start to love you when you can’t love them.

They remember you when you have already forgotten them.

They only notice you when put your mask on.

They need you when you don’t need them.

They want to be with you just when you wanted to be alone.

They don’t have time for you but you gave them all your time.

They don’t  understand you and yet you’ve tried so hard to understand them.

They wan’t you to stay but they always make you feel alone.

They hurt you but you still love them even when the pain is already too much.

Until one day they  realize that  it is already too late.

Too late for her.