This wheelchair is a symbol of disability.And this is what it feels like while working  in Saudi Arabia. The feeling of being helpless and dependent.To be pushed around by people  because you won’t get what you need not unless you allow them to control you.You can’t even fight back or fight for your right because you know that you will end up being the bad guy.
        The only thing that you can do is  to be patient,knowing that someday you will have the strength to get out of that wheelchair and chase your dreams. The hope for a better tommorrow keeps you going.No matter how people treat you bad,you stay silent.
         Working in a foreign land, you will experience life in a different way.Dealing with people at work and accommodation everyday.And you can’t go outside and take a deep breathe to calm yourself down or go somewhere else to relax.No.Here in Saudi,there are only 2 places you can go;work and your accommodation.No families and friends to comfort you.Anyone who needs to survive needs to toughen up and learn how to be independent.
          For now, you have to do everything as they say.And when you have already saved enough strength, use it well to never to be on a wheelchair again.
            Hopefully, everything that is happening will help you become strong.And that time will come when you dont need to be  on a wheelchair anymore because you can walk by yourself.


To being considerate



               Working in a foreign place is difficult.Imagine living with people who make it more difficult for you. Everyday, i go to work and go home very tired.I expect to rest and have a good night sleep,in preparation for another tiring day at work the next day.Unfortunately, you wont be able to do that since someone is still talking to someone on her phone.And eventhough i don’t care whom she’s talking to;i cant do anything to stop hearing her voice and going inside my very tired head.
           We human beings are capable of considering other people’s feelings.That is why we think first before doing what we want or need  to do.The problem is,as human being we also tend to take advantage of people who are kind to us or people whom we are comfortable with.We do anything we want without taking to consideration if we are already disturbing other people.
         There are many situations where we are the ones abusing or being abused because we become too comfortable with each other. Situations where your roommate would play loud music or talk on skype even though you are already in bed doing your best to fall asleep as early as you can. Calling someone and talking to them for a long time eventhough  the lights are already turned off meaning that the other  going to sleep.
           I am not saying that no one is allowed to make any noise inside the room.What i mean is that there should be a time as to which a person can make as much noise as she wants;and a time to be quiet also.There should be a time for everything. I don’t know about you but after a hard days’ work, i want to be able to go to a place where i can rest and be at peace.    
          I don’t know how long i can take this.But i am praying so hard to give as much understanding as i can.If i explode,then im sorry.
         How i wish i had my own room.
          Oh inner peace,please help me.

How to minimize being homesick in k.s.a


       Homesick.I never thought i would ever feel this. After all my mind was all set to my goal. Save money and go back to Philippines.Making friends was not even on my mind. I was sure of what i had to do.
         For one month i did not feel that i missed Philippines or my family and friends.I put in my mind that 2 years will be fast.That before i know it my contract is already finished. I was confident and proud that i did not feel bwing homesick. I thought that i was the exception to the rule.
          It was already 3 months and  i was still  doing fine. Then, it turns out i was wrong. Homesickness came knocking at my door after 3 months.I did not even need to open the door it had its own key.I could not stop it.  I suddenly missed everything in the Philippines..My family,friends,food,beach,malls..the freedom to go anywhere you want.EVERYTHING. I was so depressed that i asked my employer if i can go home.
          So, i had to find ways to keep myself busy and minimize being homesick. Here are the ways:
         1. Download a lot of movies and tv series. (You will be provided with  a tv but the shows are just thesame better have your own laptop loaded with movies and games)
          2. Bring books.(bring your favorite books or books you want to read because it is difficult to buy english books here)
           3. Subscribe to a wifi connection.(talking with family and friends through skype or facebook helps a can also be updated with the latest news in your country)
            4. Learn a new hobby. (Before i did not know how to cook or i can do both.since you are only allowed to go out every 2 weeks if you are lucky,you have a lot of free time to Bake and Cook all you want.)
             5. Make friends.But choose wisely.It’s better to have only one but true friend.
             6. Enjoy what your job.You have no choice.
              7. Listen to music to calm you down.
               8. Always pray.(here in saudi arabia its either you become the monster that you hate or you become a better and stronger person)