How I failed.

I failed when,I thought I was not worthy to be loved;every time I decided that I deserved less and not more. I failed when,all I wanted was to react instead of just listening to you.I failed when,I gave in to the delusion of a perfect relationship;Like what I saw in the movies and fairytale books.I …

You found me

You found me when I did not want to be found. You lift me up when I was fell on the ground. I thought I wanted to be left alone, I thought I could live my life on my own. But you proved me wrong and showed me home. I made a lot of mistakes. …

Do not read this. Part 1

Here I am sitting on the couch, thinking of what to write when I don't even know what to write about. But I just feel like I want to write something. I need to write something. Do I write about my never ending thoughts about my life and its meaning? or do I just share …

finally.. THE ANSWER.

Sometimes we wonder why we are in a situation that seems impossible. We can't seem to figure out why we are in that situation in the first place.Then we begin to ask ourselves if we deserve it. When my mother got sick last year.I was very angry and frustrated because the timing could have never …

Losing you

I never thought that i would lose you so soon. I never realized that it would give me so much pain. The emptiness creeps up on me everyday. It reminds me that you are not here with me anymore. It reminds me that i could never do anything to bring you back. My life and …

Losing you

I never thought that i would lose you so soon. I never realized that it would give me so much pain. The emptiness creeps up on me everyday. It reminds me that you are not here with me anymore. It reminds me that i could never do anything to bring you back. My life and …

A Dream

Photo by Mo Eid on Pexels.com Maybe you were just a long dream that I had one night. Or just a distant memory that I cherished and could not let go of. Whatever it is or was, it was beautiful. Painful, but beautiful. Imperfect but true. It was like I was in this fairytale dream …

Overthinking and Giving up

July 12, 2021 is the day before my last of the 4th night shifts for this week. I couldn't sleep well all because of Overthinking. My mind would play different scenarios of all the wrong things that could go wrong on my last night shift. Now you might ask "What is so stressful about his …

Wonder Woman

Wonder woman Paano ba ulit magsulat ng tulang hindi pampasikat tulang d lang magpapamulat pero pra din magpasalamat gusto kong ipagsigawan sa lahat,    mga sakripisyo mo pra sken wala kang katapat. d ka napagod na mahalin ako kahit minsan d ako karapatdapat. Ikaw ang unang nagturo sken magsulat at magbasa ikaw ang nag alaga …

Let me Thank You

Let me be the one to say thank you “mom” for the love  you’ve given me. I know i haven’t said this lately, but i need to show you how much you mean to me.  i know now that life is short. and you need to know how much you’re worth. There were times that i …

Death Anniversay

September 30,2018. It has already been a year. Time does fly so fast. Last year, You were still alive. Last year, You gave me a chance to take care of you. Last year, You had big dreams for me, for the both of us. Last year, I had someone who was so excited for my …

Irreplaceable

If i lose my phone i can just buy a new one. If i lose my Job i can find another one. If i am bored there are tons of things to do to keep me entertained. If i'm sick..i take vitamins. If i feel weak i exercise. But there are just some things that …

Reality

People would often ask me how i was, but most of the time i am not sure how to respond to it.My head would be filled with so many questions that i needed to think first of what my answer should be. I mean it depends in how sincere they really are ahout asking me …